So as most of us are wont to do when we have a little time between loads of laundry, loads of work or loads of b.s. ....I found myself pondering the complexities of existentialism and man...
of course in my head it went more like...."hmmmm...what if I'm a total dork?"
What if everything I believe is totally wrong?
What if the Hindus or the Buddhists are right and we just recycle around and around till we get it right?
Or maybe I'm just a biggo walking, talking part of the earth and when I die I just go right back into it?
Or maybe this is all just one big lucky accident and there's just nothing out there that means anything other than right now?
I guess all those could be true. I mean, the only reason I am so grounded in my faith is because I have seen God work in my life and have witnessed the power of redemption in Christ in so many. But as far as proof proof...well I suppose any of these beliefs as well as mine are lacking in that.
There's no lack of people who will tell me that my "faith" is just a delusion I use to comfort myself...and I suppose even they could be right. Its not like we lack for reasons to need comfort now and then. So if I spend my whole life wallowing in this delusion...does it matter?
So I died a big dork and lived a life believing in a fake God following a fake example of how to love others and have compassion and make a positive difference. I followed fake rules...although anyway you look at it not stealing, not hurting, killing or disrespecting others and just being a good person are positives all around. I made myself a part of an entire community of others as deluded as me....guess I'll just recycle around to my next life and hopefully not be as big a dork....or I'm just dirt again and who cares anyway...or nothing, just nothing...
Does it matter? If I'm wrong? Not really...I can't find a downside to being wrong...other than maybe another spin on the big rollercoaster of life.
The way I see it, it only really matters if I'm right...and hopefully we wont find that out for a long time...and then it wont really matter will it? well... at least not to me.
Honestly...I can't see a downside to loving my God. To believing, in the end, I will be found whole and worthy because of Jesus. I'm happy, free, comforted and secure in that faith. I harm no one and hopefully make things a little better during my turn here. I share the hope and love I feel with others who might need it.
No harm no foul right?
...I'm not really worried about being wrong....although we all know that could NEVER happen!!!
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